Dah lama aku tak tulis blog. Disebabkan aku sure dia dah tak baca blog aku, jadi aku nak tulis kat sini.
Baru2 ni aku dah bertunang dengan lelaki ni. Let us call him as T. T ni masa dulu aku kenal dia, lembut, baik, soft spoken.
Aku tak pasti la kenapa makin lama aku dengan dia, makin kasar & makin tak endah dia nak jaga hati aku. Mungkin sebab aku kot yg terlampau santai dan aku tak pernah nak betul2 warn dia cam tu.
Aku ni sejenis senang, cepat lembut hati, lagi2 dengan orang yg aku sayang. Jadi, tiap kali dia tersalah laku, tersalah cakap, aku merajuk pun sekejap gila, lepas tu aku buat macam tak de apa jadi. Mungkin kat situ silap aku sampai dia dah terbiasa kecik kan hati aku tanpa dia peduli nk kena pujuk ke apa.
Sebelum aku kenal dia, kahwin ni aku dah exclude terus dari list aku sampai aku berjaya setel hutang dan stabilkan financial aku. Tapi... lepas kenal dia, all my money is dedicated to our wedding.
Masih dia tak trust, tak rasa, tak percaya yg aku nk kahwin dengan dia. Sebab aku selalu ugut putus tunang, etc.
Padahal semua tu aku cakap sebab aku nak dia tu sedar yg aku tak boleh nk bersama dia yg perangai macam sekarang.
Aku rindu T aku yg dulu, yg panggil aku dengan lembut. Yang tak pernah nak maki aku cakap palatau, cakap pala otak. T yang tak pernah salahkan aku bila dia gagal urus masa dia. T yang tak keluarkan rokok pun depan aku. T yang sangat berhati-hati bila bercakap sebab nak jaga hati orang. Hmm..
Dear T,
Saya tunang kamu. Saya rindu kamu. Saya tak suka kamu berkasar dengan saya dan ketahuilah bahawa, saya hanya boleh dilentur dan dilembutkan dengan kelembutan. Kalau kamu berkasar dan berkeras, kita akan gagal. Saya tahu sukar nak berlembut, tapi once kamu dah berlembut, saya akan jadi lebih bertimbang rasa, lebih berfikir tentang sikap saya yg serba kurang ni. Maaf sebab saya bukan tunang yg baik.
Yang rindu encik T yang dulu,
M
Can I cry?
Because it's been a while I had not cried.
Can I cry?
Since this aches keep on coming by.
Can I cry?
For me to hope that us will go up high.
Can I cry?
Without your presence, I feel like wanted to die.
Can I cry?
When tears might help us to have faith and not stopping to try.
Can I cry?
Perhaps He will hear my prayer after this longest all night cry.
p/s : Hoping for past not to happen is insane but what can be done is creating a bright future although with the gloomy and cloudy past, present which you had gone through. I love u, Fer.
Hye guys. Memandangkan I nampak macam ramai je terpinga-pinga tak tahu apa yg perempuan tak suka sangat & sikap yg perempuan rasa macam susah untuk terima, I tolong lah senaraikan sikit ni. Harap membantu.
Perempuan tak suka sangat:
1. Lelaki kaki belit
Yang ni, korang lelaki tolong la jujur je kalau dah memang dalam perhubungan, jangan menipu. Selain tu jangan reka2 alasan, kalau nak main game, cakap je la nak main game. Kalau I, I ok je.
2. Lelaki yg nampak sangat terdesak
Terdesak tu macam u terlampau push perempuan tu untuk terima u atau untuk kenal u. Bagi masa. U boleh usaha tapi jangan nampak macam u terdesak sangat. Biar benda tu nampak natural.
3. Lelaki terlampau ego
Lelaki & ego, I taw susah nak dipisahkan tapi, dalam hal ni u kena pilih ego u atau dia. Tak kan la sebab ego u, u tak sanggup nak confess kat dia yg u syg & dah lama suka dia? Kalau mcm tu, u kena betul2 ego la tengok dia dengan org lain, jangan jeles pulak nanti.
4. Lelaki pandang rendah orang lain
Jangan sesekali u rendahkan org lain, lagi2 pesaing u. Kalau dalam nada gurau tu ok je if u dgn dia dah declare tapi kalau belum apa2 u dah sibuk rendahkan org lain, jangan salahkan I kalau dia tak pilih u. hehe.
5. Lelaki kedekut melampau
Alamak.. jangan la kedekut sangat bro. Kalau u ajak dia keluar, takkan u nk harap dia payung u semua kot? No..no..no... ni bukan pasal materialistik, ni pasal etika u la sbg lelaki, u yg ajak keluar, u la belanja, if dia ajak & u tak dak duit.. cakap ja tak dak duit..kalau dia tak material, dia akan faham & tak kan paksa u atau dia yg akan belanja u bro if dia memang berkeras nk keluar. Lagi satu, 1st date kt tempat biasa2 & yg u mampu bayar sahaja sebab u yg kena bayar kan? haha.
6. Lelaki kaki paw duit
Mak aiii...jangan terkejut bro.. memang wujud... u boleh test gadis u tapi u jangan sesekali paw dia, kalau tak, habis la u...U test la dia dengan cara pinjam RM50 je, cukup bulan u bayar balik on time plus siap bagi coklat sikit sebagai penghargaan. Lepas ni dia mesti tak lokek & dia percaya u. Tp ingat, jangan paw duit dia. Time ni la u boleh nampak dia ok ke tak nak tolong u.
7. Lelaki suka cakap lucah sepanjang masa.
Ni pantang. Kalau boleh jangan langsung. Melawak lucah pun jangan. Kalau berkias ok lagi kot terpulang kepada jenis perempuan. Tapi sebaiknya jangan. Nanti dia ingat u pervert, miang, gatal. Dah tak pasal2 melepas je... haish...
8. Lelaki diktator
Diktator ni macam suka tunjuk yg u berkuasa mutlak la sebab u lelaki. Heyy... u tak boleh macam tu bro lebih2 lagi dekat gadis2 yg educated ni. U kena beri pendapat u dan biar dia fikir. Jgn la cakap ayat yg mcm "u salah, u tak tahu, u perempuan...I lelaki, u kena ikut cakap I sebab I lelaki.." trust me it won't works. U kena bagi ayat lebih kurang macam ni, "I rasa, u tak patut la mcm tu..tapi terpulang, u kn dh besar, boleh nilai sendiri, I bg pendapat I je." Percaya lah yg dia akan ikut kalau dia pandai fikir
9. Lelaki tak faham bahasa
Tak faham2 bila dia dah tolak u. U bagi dia masa. Kalau dia tolak u, u biar dia tolak u, 3 kali ja. Kalau dia suka u gak, dia akan teringat je effort, usaha u yang sampai 3 kali tu. Kalau tak, u cari lain je bro. U kan lelaki, macho pulak tu kan.
10. Lelaki kaki pukul
Jangan sesekali u pukul dia walaupun dia cabar u. Biar u nampak dayus sebab tak pukul dia masa dia cabar u daripada u nampak dayus sebab u pukul dia. Walaupun dia mungkin jahat, u jangan pukul dia, perempuan bukan level u la untuk u pukul. Usah la rendahkan level u bro dgn cara pukul perempuan. Sabar kena tinggi, lagi2 dengan perempuan keras hati, keras kepala... macam I.. erk.. ok bro... Assalamualaikum.. Selamat sejahtera.. harap tips ni berguna untuk semua... ❤
Love is something that seems to be close but yet so far away.
Love is when you didn't even got time to think because you only have time to feel.
Love is a cliché, desired by almost every single human.
Love is you?
Hye you.
Its been a short while.. and think of I might try to write this for you.. although you won't realize this.
Hey you,
I saw you with her,
yet I decide to walk away.
But my heart is trembling,
It's asking me to stay.
You seems to like her,
Like more than a lot,
More than you like me before,
That's the thing, I never got.
We met again, but I am at worst,
To let you saw me at my worst,
Like pain, trapped in my chest.
Realizing you won't stop me,
You wouldn't even realize,
Days making us distance,
and not just distance from eye to eye.
Time might not be the reason,
Even also the distance,
Silence perhaps make a different,
Although you might not care even.
Feel like surrendering,
You gave me hope,
While hope like promise,
The promise I needed the most.
To hope for the remaining love,
As hoping if it is not the hardest part,
The most likely promise that vague,
The lost when we were apart.
However...
We aren't the same,
Won't be the same no more,
Though I feel it is a shame,
While this time, nothing left to be blame.
Though, it is nice to meet you again,
Still felt like goodbye for now,
May time will heal this pain,
With no more fake promise and vow.
Guy so just please,
Leave and let me go,
Aches and scars, you bring,
Had enough for me to blow.
Despite all this...
Dearest Alimiey,
Happy Belated Birthday,
May she bring you cheers,
And joy along your way.
-Teka Teki Misteri-
Now it seems to me
That you know just what to say
But words are only words
Can you show me something else
Can you swear to me that you'll always be this way
Show me how you feel
More than ever baby
I don't wanna be lonely no more
I don't wanna have to pay for this
I don't want to know the lover at my door
Is just another heartache on my list
I don't wanna be angry no more
You know I could never stand for this
So when you tell me that you love me know for sure
I don't want to be lonely anymore
Now its hard for me with my heart still on the mend
Open up to me, like you do your girlfriends
And you sing to me and it's harmony
Girl, what you do to me is everything
Make me say anything; just to get you back again
Why can't we just try
I don't wanna be lonely no more
I don't wanna have to pay for this
I don't want to know the lover at my door
Is just another heartache on my list
I don't wanna be angry no more
You know I could never stand for this
So when you tell me that you love me know for sure
I don't want to be lonely anymore
What if I was good to you, what if you were good to me
What if I could hold you till I feel you move inside of me
What if it was paradise, what if we were symphonies
What if I gave all my life to find some way to stand beside you
I don't wanna be lonely no more
I don't wanna have to pay for this
I don't want to know the lover at my door
Is just another heartache on my list
I don't wanna be angry no more
But you know I could never stand for this
So when you tell me that you love me know for sure
I don't want to be lonely anymore
I don't wanna be lonely anymore
**Dear you..please teach me how to love again, I hurt myself badly in the process. 😢😢😢
Setelah setahun...
Aku : Lama tak jumpa lu.
Dia : Rindu?
Aku : Lu bz, penat gua suruh lu beli HP.
Dia : Gua banyak keje site sekarang. HP tu nanti la.
Aku : Dah setahun la ngok lu tak pakai HP. Ambil HP gua dulu la.
Dia : Tak nak la, nanti apa2 susah. Apahal lu mcm Indon ni?
Aku : Buruk ke weyy? Alaa, malam2 nak senang, aku pakai instant shawl je la.
Dia : Macam Indon.
**the reason why aku selalu suka kau. Kau ikhlas, kau tak menyusahkan, kau selalu buat aku hepi walaupun aku dress up macam Indon. Ni tak tahu la berapa la lagi baru jumpa semula. Hmm.
I don't want to get melt again.
I am afraid.
I saw the ache is coming.
I feel a little pain along this while.
I want you to know that I really like you and its been a while I am enjoying and feel the real comfort with someone.
Hey you. Please change your mind and allow me to cure the cancer in you.
Sincerely,
Teka Teki Misteri
I am not a good person,
not even a good friend,
not a good lover,
not a good sister,
not a good daughter,
not a good student,
not a good employee,
not good in everything but...
one thing that I wonder, what would it be to the people's surround me when I am gone, die?
Will I be missed?
Will I be in their pray?
Will I be included in their best memory?
Will I manage to make something that benefit others even when I am gone?
Heavy thinker. That's just me.
Aku tak tahu la ujian apa yang Allah bagi dekat aku.
Dua bulan lepas, abah dan adik yang paling rapat dengan aku meninggal and what worst is...
Adik meninggal lepas aku halang dia join MLM dan abah pulak meninggal sebelum sempat dia kenal lelaki itu. First judge, he is being rejected from all of the family members but...
After being screened out by Pak Su.. Pak Su told mom that he is a nice guy and still mom rejected him.
So here, I lost three main source of my courageous this time. Ni semua sebab mulut puaka pendapat yang one of my in law aunt (because he is my uncle's wife not even my real aunt) jaja cerita tentang keburukan je tanpa sempat si dia perkenal kan diri kepada ahli keluarga yang lain.
But, what makes me love him is, after dia kena hina macam tu pun, he still treating me like princess, keep me safe and alive.
Mungkin orang akan nampak aku ni anak derhaka tapi sebenarnya bukan mudah untuk jumpa orang yang sanggup sabar dengan mental problem aku dan yang sanggup bernanah telinga dengar aku bebel pasal agama, pasal politik dengan penuh emosi. Plus, aku nak bawak dia jd baik walaupun aku ni macam gampang...
As for me, age is just a number. Distance also just a number but time didn't.
So, kau nak cakap yang kau tu risau dan canang cerita sana sini sebab dia duda, anak sorang, kerja mekanik, beza umur dengan aku 11 tahun la?
Let me tell you something, Rasulullah first wife is janda, beza umur baginda dan Khadijah 15 tahun and one more thing, gaji Rasulullah masa tu berapa sangat nak banding dengan harta Khadijah.
That's it!! I am done. Semoga Allah buka kan hati kamu dan hati2 manusia2 lain seperti kamu. Aminn.
Aku umur 24 dah tetapi hidup aku macam umur 9 tahun.
Aku rimas dan jaki dengan sikap menggelabah kaum tertentu yang sibuk menceroboh hak peribadi kehidupan aku.
Kau rasa kau baik lah dengan cara macam tu? Fuck you. Pergi mampos.
Info Penting Buat Pengguna Kenderaan
Maklumat ini penting utk kita fahami berkenaan dgn tayar kenderaan yg sedang kita gunakan.
1. Kod Tayar Kenderaan.
Contoh 205/65/R1594H.
205 = Lebar
65 = Tinggi
R = Radial
15 = saiz / rim
94 = Had maksimum bebanan
H = Had maksimum kelajuan 210 km / jam
Jika ianya abjad yg terakhir, ianya seperti di bawah;
S = Maksimum had laju 180 km / jam
T = Maksimum had laju 190 km / jam
U = Maksimum had laju 200 km / jam
V = Maksimum had laju 240 km / jam
Z = Maksimum had laju 240 km / jam
W = Maksimum had laju 270 km / jam
Y = Maksimum had laju 300 km / jam
2. Setiap tayar ada 4 angka tercatit di sisi tayar.
Contoh 0514.
Ianya menunjukkan tayar baru keluaran kilang pd minggu ke 5 tahun 2014.
Tempoh penggunaan tayar adalah selama 5 tahun dari tarikh ianya dikeluarkan.
Tayar baru yg berusia lebih dari 5 tahun masih boleh digunakan tetapi ianya telah menjadi keras sebab getah tayar sudah tamat tempoh (expired). Jika tukar tayar yg baharu pastikan tahun pengeluarannya adalah tahun yg terkini.
Jika beli tayar keluaran tahun 2013 minta diskaun sebanyak 20% drp harga asal.
Berikut adalah diskaun harga tayar mengikut kpd tahun tayar yg dikelurkan dari tahun semasa (2014);
2012 = 40%
2011 = 60%
2010 = 80%
2009 = Percuma
Semoga perkongsian ini membantu kita agar tidak ditipu oleh kedai jual tayar.
Jadikan aku kekasihmu untuk seumur hidup
Kerna aku ingin menyayangimu
Jadikan aku penamu untuk selamanya
Kerna aku akan menulis diari untukmu
Jadikan aku peneman tidurmu
Kerna aku ingin menjamah perasaanmu
Jadikan aku bayang-bayangmu
Kerna aku akan menemanimu dibawah cahaya
Jadikan aku berus gigimu
Kerna aku hanya setia padamu
Jadikan aku kanta sentuhmu
Kerna aku mampu meluaskan pandanganmu
Jadikan aku sepatumu
Agar kakimu tidak dicemari
Jadikan aku payungmu
Agar kau terlindung dari cuaca bahaya
Jadikan aku laptopmu
Aku akan teroka apa saja untukmu
Jadikan aku cermin untukmu
Kerna aku jujur dengan apa yang kau lihat
Jadikan aku radiomu
Agar aku bisa temanimu saat kau sunyi
-De Schouxard-
**This masterpiece is a gift from someone during my hard time. To that someone, thanks a lot and I will try my best to reply your poem.
The day you make that decision is the day you die in my life.
What remains is only memory from the past...
So long and have a great life Mr. Juliet d Orange..
Nvm, I won't find someone like you because sure he will leave me too if he is like you...
haha...
Pahatkan nisan, kuntuman syair,
Keluh pujangga, kasih tak sampai.
-Ali Setan 2-
Hati sentiasa berharap,
Kasih sentiasa menanti,
Sayang terkedu melihat,
Cinta tak sampai ke hati. -TTM-
Mengenalimu...
Jatuh hati padamu...
Keputusan membawa diri daripada kamu...
Mendengar khabarmu...
Menerima undangan pernikahanmu...
Indah.
Terima kasih untuk rasa yang indah.
Yang terindah hanyalah sementara - Erra Fazira.
Berbahagia lah kamu, sesungguhnya sungguh aku ikhlas mendoakan kebahagian kalian. Aminn.
p/s : bahagian aku belum sampai...
Kau buat hashtag gabung nama dan...
Kau ingat aku boleh percaya yg kau tiada perasaan pada dia?
Dia pun gadis...jadi tiada yg mustahil untuk kau punyai perasaan pada dia....
Jadi kenapa kau harus bengang bila aku bertanya soal kau dan dia?
Kalau dah sayang mengaku saja...
Tak mati pun kalau kau mengaku kau sayang dia...
Suka hati kau la labu...
Some people are ugly.
Some people are dumb.
But I am both.
because I love you that is why.
because I care that is annoyed.
because it is hurt and that is for sure.
Please continue ignoring me and block my whatsapp too because I can't stand my self to see you online but not ignoring you.
I just can't help my self from not sending text to you.
That is the reasons why I hate the fact that I like you, I love you a lot.
Because I love you sayang and I know that you won't.
"Scar at your body show that you had fight, scar at your heart show that you had loved."
p/s : I thought that I am done but still I write about you. Just when will you realize this.
I still remember, the day you come by.
That was the moment, and you start it with a hye.
You asked me something,
but I can’t recalled
and then we laugh like we known forever all.
I still can’t forget, the night that we first met,
You bring me to restaurant of hawker instead.
We agree to eat at the street, that night,
but the restaurant is more than sweet,
and that is the first night, the first time we meet.
I don’t even adore you at first, not even care,
For me, my past is still more to bear.
But you give me courage and never stop to try.
That is the love that I hardly realise and why?
Time feel like running so fast,
Every day and night discussing about our path.
Sometimes you here, sometimes you there,
Sometimes you love, sometimes you don’t care.
You said that you love me, and I knew it wasn’t true,
Thus, I keep on silent with no reply of “I love you too.”
One day you came by again, and act like “not missing you”,
Out of the blue before midnight, you repeat again the “I love you”
I ask you to stop, because I know the feeling is fake,
Mentioned by you that night, it comes deep from your heart although it is fake.
The moment I am awake, you already gone,
The love that you give before, is now like sunset in the dawn.
I don’t know what to do,
And choose to be calm,
But believe me boy, every day I hope to be in your arm.
And now I already late,
You have met your new soul mate.
As good bye will always not my preference,
Thus, I prefer to watch from far, Instead still hoping for us to be like before, but that’s making me going too far.
I know you won’t love me, it will never be true,
I knew it from the start but still I fall for you.
Now is the perfect time,
to say that I am sorry,
for keeping this from you in a while,
I am in deep guilty.
Thus, its hurt me enough to love you secretly.
