#2 : Kodok

Setelah setahun...

Aku : Lama tak jumpa lu.
Dia : Rindu?
Aku : Lu bz, penat gua suruh lu beli HP.
Dia : Gua banyak keje site sekarang. HP tu nanti la.
Aku : Dah setahun la ngok lu tak pakai HP. Ambil HP gua dulu la.
Dia : Tak nak la, nanti apa2 susah. Apahal lu mcm Indon ni?
Aku : Buruk ke weyy? Alaa, malam2 nak senang, aku pakai instant shawl je la.
Dia : Macam Indon.

**the reason why aku selalu suka kau. Kau ikhlas, kau tak menyusahkan, kau selalu buat aku hepi walaupun aku dress up macam Indon. Ni tak tahu la berapa la lagi baru jumpa semula. Hmm.

Melt

I don't want to get melt again.

I am afraid.

I saw the ache is coming.

I feel a little pain along this while.

I want you to know that I really like you and its been a while I am enjoying and feel the real comfort with someone.

Hey you. Please change your mind and allow me to cure the cancer in you.

Sincerely,
Teka Teki Misteri

No Good

I am not a good person,
not even a good friend,
not a good lover,
not a good sister,
not a good daughter,
not a good student,
not a good employee,
not good in everything but...

one thing that I wonder, what would it be to the people's surround me when I am gone, die?

Will I be missed?
Will I be in their pray?
Will I be included in their best memory?
Will I manage to make something that benefit others even when I am gone?

Heavy thinker. That's just me.

Ujian.

Aku tak tahu la ujian apa yang Allah bagi dekat aku.

Dua bulan lepas, abah dan adik yang paling rapat dengan aku meninggal and what worst is...

Adik meninggal lepas aku halang dia join MLM dan abah pulak meninggal sebelum sempat dia kenal lelaki itu. First judge, he is being rejected from all of the family members but...

After being screened out by Pak Su.. Pak Su told mom that he is a nice guy and still mom rejected him.

So here, I lost three main source of my courageous this time. Ni semua sebab mulut puaka pendapat yang one of my in law aunt (because he is my uncle's wife not even my real aunt) jaja cerita tentang keburukan je tanpa sempat si dia perkenal kan diri kepada ahli keluarga yang lain.

But, what makes me love him is, after dia kena hina macam tu pun, he still treating me like princess, keep me safe and alive.

Mungkin orang akan nampak aku ni anak derhaka tapi sebenarnya bukan mudah untuk jumpa orang yang sanggup sabar dengan mental problem aku dan yang sanggup bernanah telinga dengar aku bebel pasal agama, pasal politik dengan penuh emosi. Plus, aku nak bawak dia jd baik walaupun aku ni macam gampang...

As for me, age is just a number. Distance also just a number but time didn't.

So, kau nak cakap yang kau tu risau dan canang cerita sana sini sebab dia duda, anak sorang, kerja mekanik, beza umur dengan aku 11 tahun la?

Let me tell you something, Rasulullah first wife is janda, beza umur baginda dan Khadijah 15 tahun and one more thing, gaji Rasulullah masa tu berapa sangat nak banding dengan harta Khadijah.

That's it!! I am done. Semoga Allah buka kan hati kamu dan hati2 manusia2 lain seperti kamu. Aminn.

Fuck you. Yes I said FUCK YOU!!

Aku umur 24 dah tetapi hidup aku macam umur 9 tahun.

Aku rimas dan jaki dengan sikap menggelabah kaum tertentu yang sibuk menceroboh hak peribadi kehidupan aku.

Kau rasa kau baik lah dengan cara macam tu? Fuck you. Pergi mampos.