After all, the pain had become immune for me. Almost everyday I felt it whether with you or not being with you it is just the same. It is hurt. Yaa.. it did hurt me. :'(
Those scares did reminds me that the pain is always real and are not going away.
p/s : I already forget what it is like to not feel broken and yeah I do live each single day instead of jump off from a skyscraper, bridge, railway etc. Well at least I try to live.