Tak berkaitan.

Esok nak pegi holiday weyh...

Aku memang suka dengar bunyi piano...

Nampak macam tak de kaitan kan?

Tapi... sebenarnya....
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Memang tak de kaitan pun... haha ^.^ (jangan marah naa?)


Ok la... Ola Oli Cikebum Cikebum sekalian...

See ya!! ^_^

#17 : Sorry is just not that easy...

Seriously.... I really need to learn how things are being clarified as done~

I really want to learn how to stay calm when he is in trouble...


I really want to learn how to settle down and shut off this feeling on him inside me...


I don't want to be like this anymore... wasting my times on a really unnecessary homosapien that hurts me & my pride the most.... 

I'm really tired of all these...

Why would you text me? 
Why would you come back?
Why would you?


You never need to say that you're sorry because saying sorry just can't solve things but apologizing with realize & regrets is just what suit you...


Sorry? For real dude?


Please try to ever use another line -_-

DON’T TELL ME YOU’RE SORRY, CAUSE YOU’RE NOT.words. words. words. You know, words may have definitions, but these days, I think that’s the most a word can have. Definitions, no meaning, no feeling, nothing. These days, words are only words. Nothing more.

Sorry is the most useless word. 

No matter how many times someone says it, 

it's never going to reverse the damage they have done.  

WOW!!! SORRY!! Forgiving you, yes I did~


But, to trust you and being honest and sincere like before... Oh... It's really not gonna work...

Never ever forget the different between sorry and apologize or else miserable that it would become...


Sorry is not just a word... Please do take "SORRY" seriously neither when u said it nor also when u heard or received it...

I just want you to learn a lesson which called APPRECIATED!!

Sorry dude... I might enjoyed seeing you in a bit mess without me after this... Perhaps...


OPSSSS!!! Did I just say sorry?


Sorry, my mistaken... OPPSSS!!! I did it again... It just slip from my mouth so easily... Oh, my bad~

May this feeling rest in peace...

p/s : Is it ok for me to be enjoyed seeing u in a bit mess after I left? Its not violence right? Oh, I love this~

Kenapa doktor tu hot?

Sementara cuti ni, boleh rasanya kalau aku ambil kesempatan ni nak update sepam dua kat blog aku ni... aku ni tak dak la pandai sangat nak cerita apa2 pun kat korang semua...

Cuma nya lepas dah explore setting baru ni rasa terpanggil pulak untuk update blog yang tak seberapa ni... Nak update pasal apa pun tak taw la lagi...

Ada satu persoalan kat sini... Kenapa aku rasa doktor sangat hot? Kalau dapat suami doktor sangat lah bertuah tapi kalau dia on call...kena la tunggu sorang2 kt umah tu #loner

SEPULUH (10) sebab aku rasa kenapa doktor hot :

1. Sebab dia wat degree lama2 tapi dia boleh tahan dengan tempoh tu (nampak kesabaran di situ)
2. Sebab doktor memang bijak, kalau tak bijak confirm la dah kena kick time study (erk...kidding)
3. Sebab doktor friendly. Doktor perlu ramah dengan masyarakat. Suka sangat tengok doktor.
4. Doktor sangat berkebolehan dan boleh diharap bila berlaku kecemasan.
5. Jubah putih doktor sangat lah cool yg menampak kan dorang hawt sangat2... Ouch!!
6. Doktor adalah seorang yang tahu apa dia buat. Berwawasan... Suka nye lelaki cam ni!! grrr~
7. Doktor selalu nya ada asas agama dalam kehidupan.
8. Doktor tak de banyak masa untuk dibuangkan cam tu je.
9. Pendapatan tetap. Kewangan kukuh. (erk...maybe)
10. Selalu nya doktor-doktor yang aku jumpa kat hospital muka dorang bersih suci lagi kacak... hehe (ini sebab yg paling tak relevan)

Aku tulis ni saja la sesuka isi masa lapang sambil2 online ni...Jangan anggap serius lak wey... Tak de la aku cakap pekerjaaan lain tak bagus...dan tak pulak aku nak anggap doktor ni calon menantu pilihan mak2 mertua... idok ler sampai cenggitu...cuma nye entah kenapa entah aku dok suka je tengok doktor-doktor ni...

Alahai comel pulak roleplay costume doktor ni bila dipakai oleh budak2 yg comel ^_^

Tapi tak ler pulak aku simpan harapan, impian untuk kahwin dengan doktor nanti... Kalau ada rezeki tak taw la kan.... Ok la... Ola Oli Cikebum Cikebum sekalian... selamat bertemu sua jodoh...semoga berbahagia!!

See ya!! ^_^

#16 : Broken-hearted

It's my English post... (suka hati aku je bebila pn rasa nak buat english post)

p/s : sebelum tu ingin ditegaskan blog ini tiada wordless Wednesday and so on...i just make this blog to be awesome in my own way #awesome lah sgt kau!!

ok...now, back to the main topic...

it's hurt you know...

it's really damn hurt when i knew the fact that u are using me and then dump me...

it's suck!! sounds rude am I?

however... I am the type of girl that will always stand firm above all things...

I believe on the principal of there is nobody will actually care of ourselves since our own shadow will also leave us in the bright place....

Yea... I'm admitting that the scars u leave seems to gave me a deep marks...

kalau hati ni laku nak jual kat bundle, aku nak jual dan teruskan hidup. -Terfaktab

but still... I am the one who can't put the blame on u...

The girl who can sit down and pretend to be calm (perhaps) plus praying for your happiness without me being around after all that I had sacrifice = yea...that's me

At first I feel like dying...but I had practice the situation when we both decide to becomes best friend before you truly admit that you used me...

I'm not mad...but I feel sad and sorry for u...for not seeing the beauty in the heart of mine...

Every time I look back on our memories...tears still fall down through my cheek...

Its been really hard for me to make the decision in deciding to moving on and back off from this relationship instead of still being there waiting and hoping for u to see me as somebody for serious...

I prefer to leave as u seems don't want me to stay anymore...

After all, u are no longer stopping me to leave u like before...

At least before this, I saw your effort that making me stay which then lead us to these TWO years...

But now....here we are... reaching this stage...I'll be glad...

Knowing all this happen exactly like I expected not as I hope is also a relief...

I leave u as a better man... I knew that...

There will be no more Mr. Juliet d Orange for me after this...no more making cards, writing letters, creating quotes, writing poems and as for the novel...let it be without the endings...perhaps~

It is enough for me to stalking u far away until somebody wakes me and makes me love him...

OUCH!! Is that love?

This post is nothing compared to what I've been through when I'm with u...

You teach me enough...and I'll give u more than u deserve...

Still it is my fault for expecting too much from you...

May this feeling rest in peace...  

2nd p/s : kengkonon nak rare sangat lah kan sebab tak nak buat wordless Wednesday tu? rare lah sangat kau!! ^_^  #not so forever alone~

Merisik Khabar

Terkapar-kapar ku kelemasan
Sakit dilambung ombak kerinduan
Di dalam tidur di dalam jaga
Diburu oleh mimpi yang serupa
Mengapa aku jadi tak menentu
Keranamu...

Ku menyusuri jalan berliku
Membiarkan hari-hari berlalu
Tiada salam tiada pesan
Memaksa diri untuk melupakan
Namun wajahmu bermain di mata ku
Tiap waktu...

Malam ku suram, siang ku kelam
Ku kegelisahan, mencari-cari
Kemana pergi, harga diri ini
Bertanyakan berita, merisik khabar
Mendengar cerita, melaluinya
Kau kuhampiri, tiap hari
Bersama luka dihati

Mengapa aku jadi tak menentu
Kerana mu...

Malam ku suram, siang ku kelam
Ku kegelisahan, mencari-cari
Kemana pergi, harga diri ini
Bertanyakan berita, merisik khabar
Mendengar cerita, melaluinya
Kau kuhampiri, tiap hari
Bersama luka dihati


p/s : aku hanya insan yg mampu merisik khabar... sukar buat kau faham hati aku....aku taw... hati kita tak kan sama.... tak mungkin sama~

means nothing~

A year, twice of it, trice or even more does not mean anything for me if there is no different of u at all... the date means nothing... You are Just Somebody That I Used to Know~

Aku belum mampu~

Sama ada bernikah kerana mahu mengelakkan zina, atau bernikah kerana ingin bertarbiyah di jalanNya, kedua-dua nya adalah sama....

Bukan kah mengelakkan zina itu adalah satu bentuk dakwah untuk diri sendiri kerana ingin mengelokkan sesuatu yang kurang elok....

Jadi kenapa harus perkara mudah menjadi susah...?? Tanya diri sendiri...sebab Allah tak kan hadirkan sesuatu buat hambaNya yg tidak mampu...

Kalau hati masih ragu, baik berpuasa saja lah bagi mengawal nafsu...

Andai diri sudah yakin, akhlak sudah diperbaiki, diri sudah berubah ke arah kebaikan...
Maka sahutlah seruanNya bagi melahirkan generasi murabbi yg cinta nya pada Ilahi tiada berbelah bahagi...

Sungguh kelebihan ku adalah hanya mampu menyusun kata... Tapi aku juga masih seorang pengecut... Berpuasa je lah ye? ^_^