#16 : Broken-hearted

It's my English post... (suka hati aku je bebila pn rasa nak buat english post)

p/s : sebelum tu ingin ditegaskan blog ini tiada wordless Wednesday and so on...i just make this blog to be awesome in my own way #awesome lah sgt kau!!

ok...now, back to the main topic...

it's hurt you know...

it's really damn hurt when i knew the fact that u are using me and then dump me...

it's suck!! sounds rude am I?

however... I am the type of girl that will always stand firm above all things...

I believe on the principal of there is nobody will actually care of ourselves since our own shadow will also leave us in the bright place....

Yea... I'm admitting that the scars u leave seems to gave me a deep marks...

kalau hati ni laku nak jual kat bundle, aku nak jual dan teruskan hidup. -Terfaktab

but still... I am the one who can't put the blame on u...

The girl who can sit down and pretend to be calm (perhaps) plus praying for your happiness without me being around after all that I had sacrifice = yea...that's me

At first I feel like dying...but I had practice the situation when we both decide to becomes best friend before you truly admit that you used me...

I'm not mad...but I feel sad and sorry for u...for not seeing the beauty in the heart of mine...

Every time I look back on our memories...tears still fall down through my cheek...

Its been really hard for me to make the decision in deciding to moving on and back off from this relationship instead of still being there waiting and hoping for u to see me as somebody for serious...

I prefer to leave as u seems don't want me to stay anymore...

After all, u are no longer stopping me to leave u like before...

At least before this, I saw your effort that making me stay which then lead us to these TWO years...

But now....here we are... reaching this stage...I'll be glad...

Knowing all this happen exactly like I expected not as I hope is also a relief...

I leave u as a better man... I knew that...

There will be no more Mr. Juliet d Orange for me after this...no more making cards, writing letters, creating quotes, writing poems and as for the novel...let it be without the endings...perhaps~

It is enough for me to stalking u far away until somebody wakes me and makes me love him...

OUCH!! Is that love?

This post is nothing compared to what I've been through when I'm with u...

You teach me enough...and I'll give u more than u deserve...

Still it is my fault for expecting too much from you...

May this feeling rest in peace...  

2nd p/s : kengkonon nak rare sangat lah kan sebab tak nak buat wordless Wednesday tu? rare lah sangat kau!! ^_^  #not so forever alone~

Aku Berusaha!!

People will hate you, rate you, break you and shake you..... How strong you stand is what makes you.....

Sebelum tu...starts dgn quote atas ni....tak de related pun tapi saja la....

hal sebenarnya cam ni....

hmm....perlu ke aku dok ngorat n berusaha abes-abesan?? aku tengok ko macam tak nak je...aku takut seyh....klu tak nak aku bgtaw la.....aku nk brenti la syg....nak rehat....

aku pun ada hati....nak jaga hati aku gak....so, aku nak kena pilih hati siapa ni??

hati aku ke kau??

orang cakap jadi perempuan ni kena jual mahal....

macam mana aku nak jual mahal kalau kau dah hint macam tu kat kawan aku?? demn....

ramai orang cakap kat aku usaha je....

tapi aku rasa malu lah....aku ni kan gadis...napa kali ni aku lak yang nak kena amek langkah?? ngek la....



sebab tu la aku blurr taw...aku harap usaha aku ni berbaloi insyaAllah....

sebab....setiap pemberian kita, kita akan dapat ganjaran yang setimpal dengannya...

Allah tu kan MAha Mengetahui dan Maha Adil...jadi dia akan tetapkan yang terbaik...

Aku yakin....sebab tu kali ni aku doa banyak2 supaya aku jadi seorang yang tabah dan redha... amin~


p/s : aku sayang kau taw!! ^_^

takdir cinta

ku tutup mataku
dari semua pandanganku
bila melihat matamu
kuyakin ada cinta ketulusan hati

yang mengalir lembut
penguasa alam
tolonglah pegangi aku
biar ku tak jatuh

pada sumur dosa yang terkutuk
dan menyesatkan cintaku
andaikan ku bisa
lebih adil pada cinta kau dan dia

aku bukan nabi yang bisa sempurna
ku tak luput dari dosa
biarlah ku hidup seperti ini
takdir cinta harus begini

ada kau dan dia bukan ku yang mau
oh tuhan tuntunlah hatiku

p/s : lirik lagu takdir cinta....macam nak kena sikit2 la dengan idup aku... tapi tak pa....kita chill...^_^

aku tak pasti lak..

der....lama gak la aku x tulis dlm ni...rasa cm pelik je....hehe...padahal xla lama sgt kn??
hidup....mesti la rumit n miserable....klu x, x rare la kn??
aku xnk ckp pnjg2 sgt...ckup la aku dh luah kt fb melalui lagu creep by radiohead tu....


fine...yg pntg kita kena taw siapa kita...n kita jgn sesekali cari pasal dgn org...baru idup kita tenteram...aku xksah la klu stakat sket2 hal tu...hehe=P