Hello?

I wish for a great big thing but I only manage to get few memories.

How expectation kills.

I wish to be everybody's favorite hello and hardest goodbye but

you just made me became a failure.

You left.

Goodbye Mr Right Guy. Thanks for coming and please come again.

p/s : the last part tu mcm tagline pasar raya je. haha. Btw, tired of using bukan nama sebenar, so instead of only letter, I will now officially type in your name so that less misunderstanding happen. FYI, most of my recent post in this blog is dedicated for you Mr. Right Guy. Enjoy reading and have a great day. Tq.

Sad Love 2014

Love is nothing without you.

#25 : Pain of my life.

Each day when I wake up, I miss you.

Each night before asleep, I cry because I miss you so.

The story that I know only with pain and all sorrow.

Even writing this piece had made tears fall down my cheek.

I love you. I miss you. Yes, I do.

Be with me please. I willing to sacrifice all men in my phonebook as long as you are here with me always.

Translation Missing You Lyric

Yeah (maybe I’m missing you)
Without any thoughts, just like any other day, I met up with people and talked and laughed
When night comes, the TV is my only friend
When the morning sun rises, then I finally fall asleep
It’s so pathetic – I guess I liked you a lot
After you left, the blue sky looks yellow in my eyes
Are you hurting somewhere? I’m right here
Or are you in a new relationship with someone new? I miss you my baby

My heart wants to cry but I have no one to talk to
Sometimes, I want to smile widely but I have no one by my side
Maybe I’m missing you oh oh
Maybe I’m missing you oh oh
Maybe I’m missing you oh oh
Maybe I’m missing you

Back then we were clear and clean
In the beginning, we were so affectionate
And I know everyone’s like this but why was I like this?
(But) As time passed, it was like glass shattering, like the ring on my finger fading
Like being cut by a sharp knife, like being suffocated by a chain called restraint
Memories of you and I, I thought were always good
Only misunderstandings that weren’t cleared up and scars remained and I hated it
I knew I should have held in the words “let’s break up” till the end but
(Because still) The days we used to fight and argue are way better than now

My heart wants to cry but I have no one to talk to
Sometimes, I want to smile widely but I have no one by my side
Maybe I’m missing you oh oh
Maybe I’m missing you oh oh
Maybe I’m missing you oh oh
Maybe I’m missing you

Every day when I open my eyes, it still feels like you’re next to me
Can’t I turn things back to when we were together?
My heart wants to cry but I have no one to talk to
Sometimes, I want to smile widely but I have no one by my side

My heart wants to cry but I have no one to talk to
Sometimes, I want to smile widely but I have no one by my side
Maybe I’m missing you oh oh
Maybe I’m missing you oh oh
Maybe I’m missing you oh oh
Maybe I’m missing you

Sorry dear.

Sorry...
For being selfish, annoying and ignorance, sorry is just the word
I am afraid yet I am scared...
And I know that this would be weird and sounds more weird but that feeling... that feeling of being abundant is just kept on haunting me
Its make me traumatized... but yet I do want to try...
To try and give u a chance... to hope like before...to have faith like always but I can't do this alone
Sorry... I know I am wrong but please forgive me dear... and lets start all over along

Aku sayang kau.

Aku sayang kau
Tapi aku tak bodoh untuk rampas kau

Aku sayang kau
Tapi aku tahu aku tak boleh paksa kau sayang aku

Aku sayang kau
Tapi aku terlalu cepat lepas kan kau

Aku sayang kau
Tapi aku boleh pula cuba untuk tak sayang kau

Aku mengaku aku sayang kau
Bukan mudah untuk aku dekat dengan kau

Aku mengaku aku sayang kau
Kau saja yang tahu lembut hati aku

Aku sangat sayang kau
Sampai tiada lagi air mata untuk kau

Aku hampir lupa kan kau
Tapi aku gagal sebab kau terlebih dulu lupakan aku

Aku pernah sayang kau
Sampai aku rasa tak boleh hidup tanpa kau

Aku pernah sayang kau
Dan kononnya aku cakap aku dah bergerak atas (move on)

Aku tak tahu aku masih sayang kau atau tak?
Yang pasti aku tak kan cantas dan sabotaj majlis kau

Aku sangat sayang kan kau
Sampai aku tak pernah biar orang tahu sejauh mana sayang aku pada kau

Aku sangat sayang gila bab* dekat kau
Tapi semua nya dah habis sampai sini

Aku tak boleh sayang kau lagi
Sebab kau dah pilih dia untuk kau sayang

Aku akan lupa sayang aku kat kau
Sebab aku tak pernah berhenti sayang kau

Selamat Tinggal my Mr. Juliet d Orange

"Bila nak kahwin?"

Kalau awak-awak sekalian tanya kita lagi dengan soalan "Bila nak kahwin?",


Boleh tak kita jawab awak tanya la DIA. 




p/s : sebab kita taw kita tengah di uji ni.

#16 : Broken-hearted

It's my English post... (suka hati aku je bebila pn rasa nak buat english post)

p/s : sebelum tu ingin ditegaskan blog ini tiada wordless Wednesday and so on...i just make this blog to be awesome in my own way #awesome lah sgt kau!!

ok...now, back to the main topic...

it's hurt you know...

it's really damn hurt when i knew the fact that u are using me and then dump me...

it's suck!! sounds rude am I?

however... I am the type of girl that will always stand firm above all things...

I believe on the principal of there is nobody will actually care of ourselves since our own shadow will also leave us in the bright place....

Yea... I'm admitting that the scars u leave seems to gave me a deep marks...

kalau hati ni laku nak jual kat bundle, aku nak jual dan teruskan hidup. -Terfaktab

but still... I am the one who can't put the blame on u...

The girl who can sit down and pretend to be calm (perhaps) plus praying for your happiness without me being around after all that I had sacrifice = yea...that's me

At first I feel like dying...but I had practice the situation when we both decide to becomes best friend before you truly admit that you used me...

I'm not mad...but I feel sad and sorry for u...for not seeing the beauty in the heart of mine...

Every time I look back on our memories...tears still fall down through my cheek...

Its been really hard for me to make the decision in deciding to moving on and back off from this relationship instead of still being there waiting and hoping for u to see me as somebody for serious...

I prefer to leave as u seems don't want me to stay anymore...

After all, u are no longer stopping me to leave u like before...

At least before this, I saw your effort that making me stay which then lead us to these TWO years...

But now....here we are... reaching this stage...I'll be glad...

Knowing all this happen exactly like I expected not as I hope is also a relief...

I leave u as a better man... I knew that...

There will be no more Mr. Juliet d Orange for me after this...no more making cards, writing letters, creating quotes, writing poems and as for the novel...let it be without the endings...perhaps~

It is enough for me to stalking u far away until somebody wakes me and makes me love him...

OUCH!! Is that love?

This post is nothing compared to what I've been through when I'm with u...

You teach me enough...and I'll give u more than u deserve...

Still it is my fault for expecting too much from you...

May this feeling rest in peace...  

2nd p/s : kengkonon nak rare sangat lah kan sebab tak nak buat wordless Wednesday tu? rare lah sangat kau!! ^_^  #not so forever alone~

Suatu Masa - M. Nasir...

Tengah org sibuk2 pasal lagu baru christina perri OST Twilight baru tu...aku bangun pagi tiba2 terdengar lagu ni...mak aku bukak radio sinar...time tgh mandi tu...bilik air kt sebelah dapur je...aku mula2 dengar wat derk je la...lama2 aku terperasan lirik dia...aku hayati lirik nye....pergh...menusuk kalbu... perasaan yg aku tak mampu gambarkan kt dia...perasaan tu...hampir semua tergambar dalam lagu ni....aku cuma mampu berdoa....doakan keselamatan dia...keselamatan semuanya...insyaAllah one day mungkin....ku letakkan segalanya, ku serahkan semuanya pada Khaliq...hanya DIA yang Maha Mengetahui... try la dengar lagu ni enjoy...:)



Suatu Masa
Artist: M Nasir

Bagaimanakan ku mula
Dan apakah kata-kata
Yang indah untuk diabadikan
Tiap wajah berkisah
Tiap madah bererti
Manakah ilhamku

Cahaya di matamu
Senyum di bibirmu
mengukir seribu tanda pertanyaan
Mungkinkah kau jua dalam kerinduan
Di saat begini aku merindukah

Berpucuk-pucuk surat
Terbiar di depanku
Tak dapat aku utuskan
Ku ramas semua
Dan ku buangkan jauh
dari pandangan

Lalu aku kesal
Ku kumpul semula
Tak dapat ku nyatakan apa yang ku rasa
Andai engkau tahu gelora hatiku
Mungkinkah kau sahut jeritan batinku

Dengarkanlah panggilanku
Dengarkanlah lagu untukmu
Oh...Angin lalu kau sampaikan
Rasa rindu yang membara
Kepadanya

Warna-warna cintaku
Kian pudar bersama
Malam yang gelap gelita
Entahkan kau rasakan
Apa yang aku rasa
Atau kau tak endah

Tapi ku percaya
Semua telah tertulis
Dan niat suciku takkan dipersiakan
Dan di suatu masa
Di hari yang indah
Ku hulur tanganku
Lalu kau terima



p/s : Be great there, love... Been missing u so much, Mr. Juliet d Orange~

Fobia Cinta~

This is a song that i thought really suit with his condition...

enjoy all!!



Pijakan kaki bagai tak terasa
Setiap kali lihat kau tersenyum mesra
Tapi hati masih tak berani lagi
Menghampiri

Denyutan jantung aku tergendala
Kerana hati aku berkata-kata
Jangan terkena untuk kali kedua
Kan sengsara

Chorus
Bukan aku tak sudi bersama
Cuma diri tak sanggup terluka
Dulu terlalu percaya
Tak sangka aku mangsa
Fobia cinta

Kini kau datang tawarkan segala
Bulan dan bintang seluruh angkasa
Namun aku masih ragu-ragu jua
Tak terima

Ulang Chorus

Entah bila
Akan dapat percaya semula
Oh manusia yang kata
Cintai mereka
Adakah aku fobia cinta

Ulang Chorus

Denyutan jantung aku tergendala


p/s : i hope one day his "fobia cinta" will disappear and being replace by love... i love you Mr. Juliet d Orange and always did.... ^_________^

ini dari hati...

serius...malam ni aku baru je lepas abes wat assignment....macam2 benda yang terlintas kt kepala otak aku ni...

1st,napa sunshine masih x on9??risau....resah...semua perasaan ada....

2nd,apa yg mr.sengal tgh wat skang ek??nk call dia ke x nk??confuse...

3rd,napa AB guy macam tu dgn aku?? confuse juga...xpe la...kami kan kawan...s0,almost setel yg ni....

4th,sport day ni apa la jadi ek??harap semuanya lancar...aku x nk n x suka klu batch atas pandang serong kt team batch aku....sedey k0t klu cam tu =(

5th,act,aku ni ada short sem ke x??aku patut amek ke tarik diri je dari sh0rt sem tu...hmm...

6th, kedah n famili....i miss u all ^_^

last is...
what will happen t0 me in the end of all this?? am i will be with sunshine, AB guy, or mr.sengal??



am i will take the short sem??are short sem best??

what will happen during this upcoming sports day??

when will i be back in kedah??

oh demn it...this mind is full...sebab tu dalam kelas asek menerawang je...


>>>aku yg menung dlm kelas...aish...

i only can have a g0od h0pe in all this...adeh...tired of life,but i'll try my best t0 adapt with all this thingy things...

p/s : i'm always miss u mr.sengal,and u t0o Z guy because b0th of u are the only persons i can speaks all of my confuse with...

**duuh....missing...

mlm...

hehe....bru je lpas ml citra budi....best2....t la aku ltak gmbr....x smpat la...hehe...hmm....skang makin bz d0wh...sbb aku dh nk final....nk kna studi....then cuti....f0ya2....haha....best2....hmm....x de m0od nk bcnta la.....rimas,b0san n blum tba msa lg...hehe....k salam....all the best f0r me...