Dah lama aku tak tulis blog. Disebabkan aku sure dia dah tak baca blog aku, jadi aku nak tulis kat sini.
Baru2 ni aku dah bertunang dengan lelaki ni. Let us call him as T. T ni masa dulu aku kenal dia, lembut, baik, soft spoken.
Aku tak pasti la kenapa makin lama aku dengan dia, makin kasar & makin tak endah dia nak jaga hati aku. Mungkin sebab aku kot yg terlampau santai dan aku tak pernah nak betul2 warn dia cam tu.
Aku ni sejenis senang, cepat lembut hati, lagi2 dengan orang yg aku sayang. Jadi, tiap kali dia tersalah laku, tersalah cakap, aku merajuk pun sekejap gila, lepas tu aku buat macam tak de apa jadi. Mungkin kat situ silap aku sampai dia dah terbiasa kecik kan hati aku tanpa dia peduli nk kena pujuk ke apa.
Sebelum aku kenal dia, kahwin ni aku dah exclude terus dari list aku sampai aku berjaya setel hutang dan stabilkan financial aku. Tapi... lepas kenal dia, all my money is dedicated to our wedding.
Masih dia tak trust, tak rasa, tak percaya yg aku nk kahwin dengan dia. Sebab aku selalu ugut putus tunang, etc.
Padahal semua tu aku cakap sebab aku nak dia tu sedar yg aku tak boleh nk bersama dia yg perangai macam sekarang.
Aku rindu T aku yg dulu, yg panggil aku dengan lembut. Yang tak pernah nak maki aku cakap palatau, cakap pala otak. T yang tak pernah salahkan aku bila dia gagal urus masa dia. T yang tak keluarkan rokok pun depan aku. T yang sangat berhati-hati bila bercakap sebab nak jaga hati orang. Hmm..
Dear T,
Saya tunang kamu. Saya rindu kamu. Saya tak suka kamu berkasar dengan saya dan ketahuilah bahawa, saya hanya boleh dilentur dan dilembutkan dengan kelembutan. Kalau kamu berkasar dan berkeras, kita akan gagal. Saya tahu sukar nak berlembut, tapi once kamu dah berlembut, saya akan jadi lebih bertimbang rasa, lebih berfikir tentang sikap saya yg serba kurang ni. Maaf sebab saya bukan tunang yg baik.
Yang rindu encik T yang dulu,
M
Can I cry?
Because it's been a while I had not cried.
Can I cry?
Since this aches keep on coming by.
Can I cry?
For me to hope that us will go up high.
Can I cry?
Without your presence, I feel like wanted to die.
Can I cry?
When tears might help us to have faith and not stopping to try.
Can I cry?
Perhaps He will hear my prayer after this longest all night cry.
p/s : Hoping for past not to happen is insane but what can be done is creating a bright future although with the gloomy and cloudy past, present which you had gone through. I love u, Fer.
Hye guys. Memandangkan I nampak macam ramai je terpinga-pinga tak tahu apa yg perempuan tak suka sangat & sikap yg perempuan rasa macam susah untuk terima, I tolong lah senaraikan sikit ni. Harap membantu.
Perempuan tak suka sangat:
1. Lelaki kaki belit
Yang ni, korang lelaki tolong la jujur je kalau dah memang dalam perhubungan, jangan menipu. Selain tu jangan reka2 alasan, kalau nak main game, cakap je la nak main game. Kalau I, I ok je.
2. Lelaki yg nampak sangat terdesak
Terdesak tu macam u terlampau push perempuan tu untuk terima u atau untuk kenal u. Bagi masa. U boleh usaha tapi jangan nampak macam u terdesak sangat. Biar benda tu nampak natural.
3. Lelaki terlampau ego
Lelaki & ego, I taw susah nak dipisahkan tapi, dalam hal ni u kena pilih ego u atau dia. Tak kan la sebab ego u, u tak sanggup nak confess kat dia yg u syg & dah lama suka dia? Kalau mcm tu, u kena betul2 ego la tengok dia dengan org lain, jangan jeles pulak nanti.
4. Lelaki pandang rendah orang lain
Jangan sesekali u rendahkan org lain, lagi2 pesaing u. Kalau dalam nada gurau tu ok je if u dgn dia dah declare tapi kalau belum apa2 u dah sibuk rendahkan org lain, jangan salahkan I kalau dia tak pilih u. hehe.
5. Lelaki kedekut melampau
Alamak.. jangan la kedekut sangat bro. Kalau u ajak dia keluar, takkan u nk harap dia payung u semua kot? No..no..no... ni bukan pasal materialistik, ni pasal etika u la sbg lelaki, u yg ajak keluar, u la belanja, if dia ajak & u tak dak duit.. cakap ja tak dak duit..kalau dia tak material, dia akan faham & tak kan paksa u atau dia yg akan belanja u bro if dia memang berkeras nk keluar. Lagi satu, 1st date kt tempat biasa2 & yg u mampu bayar sahaja sebab u yg kena bayar kan? haha.
6. Lelaki kaki paw duit
Mak aiii...jangan terkejut bro.. memang wujud... u boleh test gadis u tapi u jangan sesekali paw dia, kalau tak, habis la u...U test la dia dengan cara pinjam RM50 je, cukup bulan u bayar balik on time plus siap bagi coklat sikit sebagai penghargaan. Lepas ni dia mesti tak lokek & dia percaya u. Tp ingat, jangan paw duit dia. Time ni la u boleh nampak dia ok ke tak nak tolong u.
7. Lelaki suka cakap lucah sepanjang masa.
Ni pantang. Kalau boleh jangan langsung. Melawak lucah pun jangan. Kalau berkias ok lagi kot terpulang kepada jenis perempuan. Tapi sebaiknya jangan. Nanti dia ingat u pervert, miang, gatal. Dah tak pasal2 melepas je... haish...
8. Lelaki diktator
Diktator ni macam suka tunjuk yg u berkuasa mutlak la sebab u lelaki. Heyy... u tak boleh macam tu bro lebih2 lagi dekat gadis2 yg educated ni. U kena beri pendapat u dan biar dia fikir. Jgn la cakap ayat yg mcm "u salah, u tak tahu, u perempuan...I lelaki, u kena ikut cakap I sebab I lelaki.." trust me it won't works. U kena bagi ayat lebih kurang macam ni, "I rasa, u tak patut la mcm tu..tapi terpulang, u kn dh besar, boleh nilai sendiri, I bg pendapat I je." Percaya lah yg dia akan ikut kalau dia pandai fikir
9. Lelaki tak faham bahasa
Tak faham2 bila dia dah tolak u. U bagi dia masa. Kalau dia tolak u, u biar dia tolak u, 3 kali ja. Kalau dia suka u gak, dia akan teringat je effort, usaha u yang sampai 3 kali tu. Kalau tak, u cari lain je bro. U kan lelaki, macho pulak tu kan.
10. Lelaki kaki pukul
Jangan sesekali u pukul dia walaupun dia cabar u. Biar u nampak dayus sebab tak pukul dia masa dia cabar u daripada u nampak dayus sebab u pukul dia. Walaupun dia mungkin jahat, u jangan pukul dia, perempuan bukan level u la untuk u pukul. Usah la rendahkan level u bro dgn cara pukul perempuan. Sabar kena tinggi, lagi2 dengan perempuan keras hati, keras kepala... macam I.. erk.. ok bro... Assalamualaikum.. Selamat sejahtera.. harap tips ni berguna untuk semua... ❤
Love is something that seems to be close but yet so far away.
Love is when you didn't even got time to think because you only have time to feel.
Love is a cliché, desired by almost every single human.
Love is you?
Hye you.
Its been a short while.. and think of I might try to write this for you.. although you won't realize this.
Hey you,
I saw you with her,
yet I decide to walk away.
But my heart is trembling,
It's asking me to stay.
You seems to like her,
Like more than a lot,
More than you like me before,
That's the thing, I never got.
We met again, but I am at worst,
To let you saw me at my worst,
Like pain, trapped in my chest.
Realizing you won't stop me,
You wouldn't even realize,
Days making us distance,
and not just distance from eye to eye.
Time might not be the reason,
Even also the distance,
Silence perhaps make a different,
Although you might not care even.
Feel like surrendering,
You gave me hope,
While hope like promise,
The promise I needed the most.
To hope for the remaining love,
As hoping if it is not the hardest part,
The most likely promise that vague,
The lost when we were apart.
However...
We aren't the same,
Won't be the same no more,
Though I feel it is a shame,
While this time, nothing left to be blame.
Though, it is nice to meet you again,
Still felt like goodbye for now,
May time will heal this pain,
With no more fake promise and vow.
Guy so just please,
Leave and let me go,
Aches and scars, you bring,
Had enough for me to blow.
Despite all this...
Dearest Alimiey,
Happy Belated Birthday,
May she bring you cheers,
And joy along your way.
-Teka Teki Misteri-
Now it seems to me
That you know just what to say
But words are only words
Can you show me something else
Can you swear to me that you'll always be this way
Show me how you feel
More than ever baby
I don't wanna be lonely no more
I don't wanna have to pay for this
I don't want to know the lover at my door
Is just another heartache on my list
I don't wanna be angry no more
You know I could never stand for this
So when you tell me that you love me know for sure
I don't want to be lonely anymore
Now its hard for me with my heart still on the mend
Open up to me, like you do your girlfriends
And you sing to me and it's harmony
Girl, what you do to me is everything
Make me say anything; just to get you back again
Why can't we just try
I don't wanna be lonely no more
I don't wanna have to pay for this
I don't want to know the lover at my door
Is just another heartache on my list
I don't wanna be angry no more
You know I could never stand for this
So when you tell me that you love me know for sure
I don't want to be lonely anymore
What if I was good to you, what if you were good to me
What if I could hold you till I feel you move inside of me
What if it was paradise, what if we were symphonies
What if I gave all my life to find some way to stand beside you
I don't wanna be lonely no more
I don't wanna have to pay for this
I don't want to know the lover at my door
Is just another heartache on my list
I don't wanna be angry no more
But you know I could never stand for this
So when you tell me that you love me know for sure
I don't want to be lonely anymore
I don't wanna be lonely anymore
**Dear you..please teach me how to love again, I hurt myself badly in the process. 😢😢😢
